For too long I minimized the consequences of what I experienced as a child. I did not see the internal blockages developed and I was not aware that my perception of life was filtered by these painful memories. I saw life in gray, my soul hurt and I thought it was normal.
I grew up in a family with toxic ties where conflicts were daily. And if the conflict was not apparent… It was found in behaviors. Sulking, comparisons, silence, emotional withdrawal, emotional manipulation, abusive authority, parental alienation… And so on. Conflict is just one example… like performance stress, eating dysfunctions, having to take care of siblings with busy parents, etc.
Being a child, and therefore dependent on my parents, I didn’t see clearly what was happening. On the other hand, I felt a lot of things and above all, that I had to remain calm in this environment, that I had to perform, respond to their requests and their desires and that I did not have the space for emotional and artistic expression which are the foundations of my soul…
I went out!
Especially since growing up, I thought that this was « that » life, that it was normal to be in toxic bonds, dependence, betrayal, masks… I was the » 2nd choice regularly, I crushed my ambitions for fear of displeasing, I prevented my flow from vibrating freely, I had dark ideas…
And the pounds of suffering piled up!
I wanted to disappear so I wouldn’t suffer anymore.
Luckily, a powerful energy within me always led me to question the why and how of things and when I understood that there was something else, I turned to the right people and the necessary training. And I developed a profession out of it.
Aujourd’hui, un mal-être qui se présente est résolu en maximum 2 jours et les difficultés de « fond » ont été tellement travaillées que je vois directement de quoi il s’agit. Sans parler de mon coffre à outils.
C’est une réussite !
Un long chemin, l’histoire d’une vie. Je vais mieux, mes relations sont saines, nourrissantes et complètes, mes comportements déprimés sont rares, mes doutes de moins en moins présents, mes peurs de plus en plus abordables, mes comportements destructeurs de moins en moins forts.
Niveau de bien-être, joie et plaisir ont tous augmentés. Les actions vers mes rêves ne sont plus des montagnes et je suis de plus en plus alignée à ce qui vibre en moi. Et surtout, je m’exprime !
Si on met des chiffres sur ces ressentis, je partais d’un 2/10 de bien-être dans ma vie en général et j’en suis à un 8/10 voire même 9/10 dans certaines périodes !